WE WANT TO BE NORMAL TOO

Hello everyone, here's another blog that I brought to you. I hope this can spread awareness and enlighten people who thought that suicidal people are just acting immature. We simply want to be normal(~°○°)~♡

Killing oneself is, anyway, a misnomer. We don't kill ourselves. We are simply defeated by the long, hard struggle to stay alive. When somebody dies after a long illness, people are apt to say, with a note of approval, "He fought so hard." And they are inclined to think, about a suicide, that no fight was involved, that somebody simply gave up. This is quite wrong.

As a person who is suicidal in any way or another, I can say you are wrong. We fought so hard everyday, every night, just to not feel the pain and to endure the numbness. How does it feel? You can just simply feel that you do not belong anywhere. When you look in the mirror, just how ugly you think you are and just funny it is that even if you tried hard to do suicide you are still afraid. Afraid of what? You say? It's just that, if I die now will, I really be able to feel freedom? If I die now, will I be able to finally feel happiness? If I die now, will my family give a decent burial? All those thoughts can already make you crazy enough. You'll feel deprived from doing what you want, and you'll endure it because it is terrifying to let them know. Mockery is traumatic. Problems are stressful. I am drowning. Am I allowed to cry and reach help? That's the most common thought, but then again you step back and decide not to because humans are terrible and disgusting. 

People say, why do you sleep at days and stays awake at night, you'll get sick ya know? We are aware though, but what can we do? We can't sleep, it's hard, something keeps on telling you not to. You are actually good at your academics but when someone already trampled on that confidence, you know you cannot go back there anymore. It is hard for us too, but we kept on fighting because we are afraid that maybe it is us, who were at fault. I want to live too, how I wish I can smile that freely. I envy strong people. I envy flashy people. I envy bright colors. I envy birds. We just wish for something to pull us from our void. 

I hope you are aware of the people around you. I hope you take good care of your childrens. Please don't let other people trample on their confidence, please check them whenever you have time. Please, even if you are busy, make time and give them some fresh air. Let them sore high, don't cut their wings. Let them be free and educate them of how beautiful life is. Because if you'll leave them alone, you'll never know what happen. Know your child and understand them. And if they're breaking down, HUG THEM.